When Guilt and Anger Made Love

The sun put on mascara and the tens of faces from across the globe fit into one screen
Juggling memories and cherry picking the best looking ones
To put it on stage and entertain the broken audience
The operating systems in my brain munch on the data
Processing it carefully while wondering what it actually means
A room filled with 3 hearts each with its own bias
But the bias in my heart and mind shouts out
Robots dressed in skin. Some white and some brown
Hiding their disabilities by giving them beautiful wings
Sugar coating the rottenness when our hearts sing songs of silence
And when the machines finish talking,
You're left with non verbal emotions expressed in dark poetry
While the widow wails, the strings on my guitar snap
Who was the catalyst? Was it anger or pain.

My good friend... Everyone says you're at a better place. I wish I could come there right away.
I want to hear you call my name once.
I try to not think but the episodes keep flashing
I cant even dare do what I want to
I see your woman and remember you. Cant even comprehend the pain shes going through
Sometimes I think, I wont wake up and slip away into infinite dreams
I now realize, there isnt anything that can understand what our heart says
I get angry...Feel like punching myself for being impatient
I cry but it doesnt fix a thing
I dont even know what to say
Or how to say what I have to say
Take me with you like you always did
I never spent a day without you two and now you're gone
I dont even look at your pictures nor keep one in my wallet