A Reminder

Remembering the last moments

The town where you graduated
The worrisome you, remembering your brother leaving without informing you
Remembering Rachel
Remembering your hometown

Saying a random word, OPPORTUNITY
Expressing pain by calling out your mom

Assuring me everything was alright right until the very end. You idiot
Telling me everything will be alright when you wre losing your mind

Telling me you cant eat anymore
Being patient while I forced you to eat up

Trying to set your hair, trying to look handsome again. For one last time

Forgetting me and drifting into a barrage of Memories
Feeling sorry for peeing in pants

That Smile, random, beautiful.
Finding it hard to walk. Or even stand up
Trusting us. Trusting our Youthful strength which you once had. A hundred times more
Trusting your weakness with us

Me getting mad at you, Me struggling to feed you, Me making mistakes while You my friend were patient
How much did you suffer in the last hours when I was lost in my sleep
It never occurred to me, you were awake all night
Never even crossed my mind it would be the last night

Me holding your hand in the last few hours
Asking if You could hear me
Knowing am loosing You forever
Sitting there helplessly
Couldn't you tell me one last time, EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY
and that you are DOING JUST FINE

Seeing the light leave your eyes. Seeing it leave right before my eyes
That painful expression. Was it that painful?
My Final Kiss. Me touching your beard for one last time. Me holding your hand for hours
My Father. How I wish You were here. How I wish I could talk to you!

Been an year already. I am scared of seeing your grave.
How I remember you. Tucked in. With those super sized glasses.
Eyes that smile. Brimming with strength. How I remember you.
How I always will remember you.