Yet another year!

Should I remember the one gone by? Or embrace the one to come?
My dearest friend, what have I become? Lies after lies...
The comfort I find at your dwelling place so amazes me
Even my prayers sound like a symphony
While she was crying, I was smiling. Wasn't I?
My friend, time will age too. May be there is a clock for each of us?
Time dies with us when we die isnt it?
Who will remember us? Its memories. Even those will be forgotten.
So hot today isnt it? So hot. And they covered you in soil?
Such villains arent we? Forgive us, my father. Its hard!
Its hard my father. My friend! I laugh, I work, I do all sorts of things
What for? I see her age as well. She will leave one day just like you.
Every second scares me to death.
There are so many things I wanted to do. But now, its a simple life.
If you were to ask me what interests you, I wonder how I would answer.
I really wanted to sit with you by your side today
Sit there when all souls departed. Talk to you with all my heart
2 years my friend. 2 long and hard years. Without a purpose.
Even the guitar is dead. May be the music is fading away just like the time
I look like an idiot writing these letters or poems or just nonsense
Somewhere in my imaginations, I lost my soul
Remember the day I failed for the first time in my life?
You said, go have fun and eat Biryani. I just had my fill today
Lots of it. I pushed it until it filled my throat
These little things, dont know if I should call them demons?
But I find strength in the ways you taught me.
As promised, I am following the path.
Even if the whole world were to hate me,
even if this family were to hate me,
even if my very being were to hate me,
I will keep the promise!
The day we meet, I Can proudly say, I gave my word and I kept it!
My father, my friend, I wonder how long this will go on
There is no wailing, no heart breaking agony
Its like a song of waiting. You ask me what for?
I wonder if my heart knows it!