Silent Wailing

Neither friend nor lovers could stand by my shoulders
Even with that crowd, wasn't that like a date night?
Just you and me? Couldn't connect with no one else
While some watched from afar, and some closer to you
That feeling of standing alone right there, right in front of you
Knowing you wouldn't see me the way you used to anymore
Seeing your face for one last time
and teh chill in my spine. Can I ever forget it?
Realizing there wasn't anyone to lean on and cry out loud
Scared of crying in front of everyone
The anger exploding in my head but shying away at the same time
Feeling lost among all those graves wondering how it would be inside
Sill as it may sound, for someone who hated heat, shouldn't I think how it feel inside?
Prayers playing inside my head
I wonder if they meant anything at that moment
Rather, I should probably say,
Silent wailing!
Yes, silent wailing, squeezing every inch of my heart and soul
Juicing every ounce of strength left to stand still.
I can't stop re-imagining the last episodes
No matter how much I run, I think I Cant let go
A shadow, isn't that a shadow of grief?
Even with all this noise at your home,
I could easily drift away
Even with all noise around me, I can hear the wailing
Whats the purpose? Right, it was you.
Now that its gone, how do I define the purpose anymore?
I wonder if my soul knows the answer
Silent wailing my dear friend.
Silent wailing. Who knows where it will lead!