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What has changed in the past few months?
The time has grown older or that's what we are told to believe
We have seen people leave to what they call a land of freedom
I experienced 4 seasons in 4 minutes
I laughed at a poor joke, loud and clear with him
I got mad with a heavy heart when he was struggling to understand if he was sane or not
I bit dust, bowed low trying to explain my anguish when he was lost in his own pain
I cried when I realized he had already forgotten me

My age and experiences dint answer me why it was happening
I asked myself why do I cry when I knew what would happen all along
Why did you cry?
There were moments when pain would stop right in the throat stretching all the way to the eyes
The times when even letting tears out was difficult
You look calm outside while tearing apart everything inside

What was a present now resonates in the past
I refer to him in past tense and my mind has begun to treat him like a memory
The touch has become a feeling from the past
The skin, the warmth, the sound, the voice
Everthing seems to fade away slowly while I try hard to recollect how it felt

I laugh with friends, make a joke and look at girls
Get lost in my work and building dreams
I am running away. The dirt I have filled my mind with
Leaving no space for memories
They say I should do otherwise but, Can I?
The very thought of treating you like a memory,
Isn't it better if I just lay by your side then do what they say?
Why does my heart cry when it knows the answer?