I Live ...

 

Pain of my pain shut with in cries out,
When rain wipes my tears, There i stand in the Rain, Never to let someone see what I Am,

 

How i wish i can unleash my pain, From the mountain tops i would shout to the worlds above,
Grief stricken laughter conceals the faded face,
How i wish i can Live...

 

I would run, run faster to meet my future and embrace it,
When my past and pain is flooded in to the depths of my heart to be forgotten with time, 

 

Then i would write my first poetry of Freedom...
A call from my distant present ... i would sing my poetry, Freedom...
I would paint my life all by myself,
I would learn to live, feel that i am still Alive...
When dark skies don't seem to run away from Me,
When the most beautiful voice sings from deep within to its Master.

  

  I would cry aloud to let go the burden, cry like a baby... 

Hungry eyes will never go hungry again, Shattered dreams would no longer lie in ruins ...
When the music i hear means something, When i can actually feel the life in Music...
When i laugh all by myself, laugh till i cry...
When lips never straighten up, and when no reason would be a contributing factor for my smile...

I would lay asleep on my bed and dream, wake up in a garden full of flowers with sun shining on my head,
I would run on the green carpets till i grow tired of chasing Myself...

I would cry aloud to let go my grief, cry like a baby...

Then i would learn to cry without Tears,
When i no longer need rain to hide my tears,
I would fly far beyond the world,
When my dreams are anchored, firm and strong...
My eyes would see the world as i had imagined,
When i no longer need poetry to pen down my pain in words, 

I would not watch my steps, i would run... Just run till i overrun My Barriers... To meet my past and smile...

When my heart no longer hides from me, It would knock from inside to ensure that i am listening to him...
Its then that my heart would fly like a bird, fly...

Then I would embrace myself and start all over again and 

 "Learn to Live... "